Unbroken

While staring at my room today, I asked myself: why am I suffering everyday? Numb-ing all this pain away . Keep on telling myself, "It is time to move on." I guess, I am stuck. Stuck at this relationship. How the earth I am gonna let go this relationship? Indeed, they are right. I still do love him. So what if I still do? Does it matter anymore? Obviously no, to him. I am literally tired... of holding on, telling myself that you're going to come back to me one day/someday... (?)

Baby, feel this heart of mine. Do I look like I am kidding or joking to you? Do you think my love I had for you are fake? Does my tears seems like eyes-drop to you? Tell me..
Just 3 word, I will wait.

So many things we promised to each another, so many.. You must have forgotten all about this.
Marry, our daughter/son, your ambition  and so many. 
You know my character well, when I say that I will wait means I will. It doesn't matter how long, or time will I be wasting, because Iloveyou. Love you more than I love myself. Love you till I can't even recognize who I am anymore. I just can't seems to bring my beautiful smile back on my face anymore. It sucks real much to pretend.

Sometimes, we just have to let go of someone who matters to us not because we have to, but because it’s the right thing to do. Let us remember that we can’t force anyone to love us. We can’t beg someone to stay when she/he wants to leave and be with someone else. This is what love is all about. However, the end of love is not the end of life. It should be the beginning of understanding that everything leaves for a reason, but leaves with a lesson.