The beginning

Today is 24052012. Remember one year ago exactly on this date...? The day you asked me for stead. It was the date of last year cross country and literally did not talk for the whole day until @ night because you thought I was angry with you. Haha how cute were. You texted me @ night saying sorry repeatedly. I pretended to be angry with you than. Hah, I think my brain is so awesome to remember vividly the contents of that night, about our conversation. You: promise me you won't ever leave me again? Me: (thinking it was just bro and sis r/s) haha promise la. I also never leave you before ma. You: be my girlfriend? Me: HUH?!!!! You: oh... So you dw ? Me: errr it's just too sudden.. -continued-
You were just the most random person. But that's what I love about you. How time flies... One year has passed and many things have changed. To a point of unexplainable reasoning. I tried to reach for you, but it was like trying to grab thin air with my bare hands, impossible and futile. Le sigh. Yes. I know you've prolly forgotten about this date completely.. Our conversation lately has been dying into nothing. You made me realise yesterday that I cannot even be compared to DOTA.. I want to cry so badly. I stay up late at night, sacrifice my sleep time, praying for that fucking text from you. I end up waking up the next day with puffy and looking so dead beat. But i hoped. 'm letting you affect my mood way to much. 'm too emotional lately, ignoring people in school, getting angry over the slightest reason. I don't want to be this way, but it's like this tiny part in me that trigger all my emotions at one go. 'm sorry to those people who 've threw tantrums at, esp kh. YES 'm sincerely apologetic. You know I don't mean them, don't you? THIS IS JUST NOT GOOD. getting so restless and listless in class, even to the extent of tearing in class @ times..Gosh, and the way you haunt me in my dreams... This is too much. THIS HAS TO STOP. I gotta admit this... Your like a drug. Your ruining my life, but at the same time your the only remedy. Damn it. Wongsihui, just fucking get over him..
Yeah I hope so~~~