Second day.. I guess saying things out actually makes me feel slightly better? And with all th friends around me, I guess th pain would fade away lil by lil everyday..? Though, life seems like it's missing him. I guess 'm so used t his presence around me.. And his suddenly MIA just took a great blow on me.. It feels like so long since I last seen him or talked t him.. And th holidays are coming soon.. I need my friends by my side, cuz when 'm with them, I get distracted from th pain and th loneliness.. It lifted my spirits by a lil, at least 'm able t smile and laugh like how I used t. But at home...? Th loneliness I feel is getting worst and worst. I get insomnia , I wake up in th middle of th night and stare at my phone, look through his message and tears start t fall again. I stare into space and cry myself t sleep.. Who am I t turn to at home? Today, my mother asked me how things were with him. All I could do was force a smile out and say our relationship is good. If only that was true.. Am I supposed t lie t her everytime she ask about him? Even lying hurts.. What hurts th most is knowing that he doesn't care about me anymore.. Not even a single word/text/call from him.. I guess he got over me.. And who knows.. I might not even exist in his heart anymore.. Tomorrow , 27082011~ how am I suppose t survive through th day? Everything started out so perfect.. And ended like so abrupty. People say cry it all out and I will feel better..  'm crying! 'm crying buckets but I don't Feel any better ): 1111 irks me out completely nao.. Everytime people talk about him i just ask them t shut up.. Idk how long I can take this anymore. To resist that fucking temptation t text him or call him and hear his voice.. Haiz. People used t be jealous of us.. But nao 'm jealous of other couples..  It's really a torture you know.. Before we stead , I told him before that o level would affect our relationship.. But he said that we would go through it tgt.. But turn out it was th very same thing that pulled us apart. What are words when you really don't mean them when you say them ? He once told me he would prove it t me that we are gonna go through everything tgt.. All th lies ..  Oh well.. 一天比一天更加的想念你..